I usually don’t say anything about the transmissions that come through me. I understand that I am just a channel, a vessel for the offering of what is hopefully sustenance for the lives and health and growth of the ones who get to hear the words and more importantly feel the accompanying vibration that he/they bring. Why try to add to the wisdom and elevated vibration of a divine consciousness.
But this time I’m going to make an exception. Not to add to what he said, but to give you a bit of context for some of what he said. I need to say from the outset that it was an even stranger experience than usual to not only be the megaphone for the transmission, but the subject of it.
At the beginning of every workshop that we do, everyone in the circle makes a prayer. The suggested structure of the prayer is: What am I bringing here to place upon the altar for transformation, i.e. what have I carried with me to this point that am I done with. And then what am I invoking in its place. What is growing, blooming, showing itself in my dreams, my meditations, my intuition, my awareness, that I am here and now asking for help to fully manifest in me.
Like everyone else in the circle, I also make a prayer.
Three days before this transmission came, I made a prayer to transform the material that had appeared quite dramatically in my liver into fuel for the further opening of my heart. I asked most sincerely to completely embody the force of forgiveness that is the antidote and transformation of the anger and irritation and judgment and criticism (of others but primarily of self) that the flaring of my liver had stimulated along with a burning rash on my right side. I was serious and as humble as I could be at this point in my life. I then proceeded to teach the class of second-year students in our Gift of the Body Light Healers Training.
On Sunday morning I was helping my wife, Jane, carry her luggage to her car when I tripped on nothing and went sprawling next to a sidewalk. As I was falling, I could feel my body, on its own, making micro-adjustments so that I fell in exactly a certain way, at a certain angle, injuring my right upper chest. In the moment it hurt a lot. And quite quickly I realized that, while I was hurt, nothing was broken. But for sure I was hurting. And then I went to class, sat in my place with substantial difficulty and the first thing that happened was the delivery of the transmission you can read below.
How did “they”, in collaboration with my body (I was an observer of the fall, not a conscious actor in it) manage to hurt me on exactly the right side line of my liver, exaggerating the material that I had prayed to transform? And how did they then make it a clear choice for me to cancel the next day’s work of seeing clients that I had scheduled and had assigned a great financial necessity to for the support of my family? The result of the injury, which turned out to be painful but in the scheme of things relatively minor—it got my attention but didn’t take me out—is that I cancelled two days of scheduled work, something that has happened now four times in 45-years. That would not have been a big deal to many people. But real transformational processes are individualized, and for me cancelling a day of scheduled work—for me not to do what I said I’d do—put me nose to nose with my almost lifelong hyper-responsibility and my childhood trauma of needing to take care of everyone around me so as to (magically) avoid the disaster which was always lurking. And with the defenses that protected that pattern.
I got the message, with the help of people I have taught to pay attention to their own prayer and the strange, non-linear, multi-dimensional programs that true healing puts us through. And because of so many years of teaching many students, hearing the teachings over and over again come out of my mouth, and because those who love me and have also made the same study were relentless in making me look at the inner reality of what was going on, I made the shift. Which required me to tolerate the anxiety and not listen to the voices that would, in doing the job of protecting me that I asked them to do 58 years ago, have had me get up and go to work to make sure that everyone was taken care of at my expense.
Since that most creative answer to my prayer, the healing has continued, because I’ve taken on the program as my own. I’ve made and am making changes in how I work in the various realms of life. My dreams have brought me more corrections and insights. My side is healing and my life is being adjusted in ways that I’ve needed to do for a long time. I am feeling a freedom and a joy that I cherish and affirm as my birthright.
Some people say, be careful what you pray for. I say, pay attention to what you pray for and then collaborate in what your guides and your bodies bring to you in answer to that prayer. That is the healing collaboration. It is empowering, humbling, interesting, and rewarding beyond any expectations I had.
Now I invite you to read the transmission and receive the vibration that comes with it.
The encouragement that we would give you is, as always, to pay attention. And to let go of the idea, the belief—which is actually a blockage to knowledge—that if something untoward happens it is a sign of failure on your part. This one made a prayer. In the fulfillment of that prayer, the qualities necessary for the transformation that he, and, in your case, you, are seeking, will be stimulated. If the necessity, as it is in this case, to, as you would say, slow down, pay closer attention, be aware of the preciousness of breath, then we in collaboration with your blessed vehicle—that as you know has its own consciousness, has its own patterns—we in collaboration with that will create the conditions where those particular qualities are made available to you. If the necessity in order to actualize the prayer is to change something profound in the arrangement of your outer life and/or your inner life, and if your prayer is sincere, then that is what we respond to. Not ever with the intention of hurting you, punishing you, or bringing you into anything other than the realization of your prayer. And your vehicle has its rules, its laws, its limitations, and it is through that blessed vehicle that you will learn what you need to learn along the way of the transformation you are seeking.
We have told you this before. This one has written this before. And yet it is good to have examples. To contemplate through the lens of our suggestion the examples that are in front of you. And then later the examples of your own self, of your own life, of what you have been presented with, are being presented with, and will be presented with. It is a misinterpretation of spiritual reality to imagine and then demand of yourself and others that an image of imagined perfection that involves only happiness is the sign of a spiritualized life. We would suggest that that is not a spiritualized life. That may be a blessed life that may have been arranged beforehand; and also it can be a life that involves, as you would say, denial.
So release in the way you know how, that belief, that image that you reflect yourself against and always come out with an opinion of your being lesser, not matching up to that image.
We would return to the theme with which we began this blessed gathering: Accept what is.
Take what is presented to you and examine it through this lens: Remember the prayer you made not just in these days; remember the prayer you made last week, last year. Remember the prayer you made before you came into this life.
We do not justify the imposition of pain, one upon the other. We do not justify in any way the enslaving of one of another. We do come to teach the good use of your life; turning things which are hurtful into things which are useful. Turning things which are painful into things which are uplifting for you and others in the transformation of that pain into wisdom.
We are with you. Have always been, will always be. We celebrate you. We bow before you. We will teach you as long as you wish to learn. And one day when you join us where we are you will become the teacher for others, the guide for others. And in this life each of you has been given, will be given, the opportunity to teach through example. Not the example of the image of abstract perfection but the image of what it means and how it is to walk the path of the heart. With all the opportunities to trip and fall. Someday, perhaps, you will have wings.
May you be blessed now and forever with the Peace of Christ in your hearts. May it guide your work, may it lead you ever more deeply into the places of humility, acceptance and all those other qualities which are awaiting your nurturing breath.
Gift of the Body—Bend, Oregon
Read more transmissions from the guides of the Essential Light Institute in our Transmissions section.